Updated: Jan 12
She was staring out of the window at a forget-me-not sky, streaked with candy-floss clouds. There was hopefulness, beauty, infinite possibility... so why was it so damn difficult? Was there some sort of view finder that she could use, or perhaps a pre-defined concept that she could squeeze and mold the picture in to? She wasn't sure that was right.
"Urgh, no" The irritation grumbles and makes itself known by forcing her up from the chair, pushing back from the table and wondering over to the windowsill... and back to the chair... and over to the piano... and back to the table.
What is this silly little dance? What is it, that seems to be saying "no" at every turn?
I think about this a lot, and I wonder if it has something to do with judgement, and scoring points with our intended audience; this feeling that we must create something worthy, beautiful, critically acclaimed, something for people to ponder, something to impress, something to grab attention...
Essentially, the process is no longer free or about what we want to create. We have bowed our heads and offered our hands in cuffs, to the opinions of others.
"URGH, NO!" This time it's empowered, perhaps there's a little more to run with here. There's a feeling and a thought, and an intention. I walk over to the piano... and back to the table....
We have bowed our heads and offered our hands in cuffs, to the opinions of others.
It's not always like this. In fact, for me personally, I'd say this horrible creative block/relentless cycle is probably the minority, but when it hits, it hits hard. Mostly, I feel curious, ambitious, and somedays, it just flies out - those are the best days.
So, how do we create the conditions for the best days?
I'm working on it.